Chronicle Dec 3-4-5-6 2018
Dec. 3: There is a small pigeon (it is growing up - it is a baby) in our balcony from the last week - it has fallen off its perch in the balcony. It has an injury on his beak area, his head area... did not sleep 3rd-4th night .. lotsa time spent on Slender Drafts blogger post ..
.. downloading Maha Lakshmi hymns from internet on 4th Dec. .. went to District Centre JanakPuri Bank SBI around 3 PM. .. contd. downloading Maha Lakshmi hymns from internet on 4th Dec. ..
.. wanted to make a make shift pinjaraa for the chhotaa pigeon - couldn't get twigs, leaves for him because of stupid lack of coordination at home - should have got done as would be apparent later ..
4th-5th night also could not get to sleep - was on computer, on internet
5th morning time - a small pigeon walked inside of our home from the balcony and went up till the rear room walking through corridor - I sensed that all is not alright with him - mother told me that perhaps he can't fly due to some problem - I told her that he has tried - I have seen but he is too little for that and and that he will fly in some days. But he has some injury in his beak head region - but we have not touched the pigeon because otherwise it will be discarded by its fellow pigeons including its own parents (?). The pigeon 'walked' right up to the pooja area in store area via the rear room and parked himself there! I tried to gently nudge him out of the pooja area first and then the room because of electricity etc. and also because, I thought, it would be difficult for us to manage with a pigeon in the house - though many years ago (around 35 years ago) there was a sparrow and we had kept him in a make shift pinjaraa - why the hell did this thought not come to me this time? - at the time of the sparrow my sister was at home (she got married many years ago), my father was alive and the 4 of us I think together were instrumental in that pinjaraa thing. I am in comparison more of a nikamma let's admit. Yeah. A life was lost again - Just see next few lines.
5th december wednesday - went to sleep some time during day - don't remember when - 10 30 AM perhaps - woke up around 5 30 PM and that too because someone came and rang bell.
5th stayed at home thereafter - around 11 00 PM just went down to the park to fetch some twigs and leaves to make a ghonsla for a chhotaa pigeon who has fallen off from the ghonslaa near the overhead water tank in our balcony - made a make shift ghonsla for the pigeon who was nowhere to be see in the balcony and I though that he is hiding behind some saamaan temporarily in the balcony these days - so I made a temporary one in the balcony in such a way that he will see it on his own and then clamber on to it and then go inside of it something.
4th-5th around morning I shaved after about 2 weeks - this is state of life now. I was looking bad last so many days? Of course. .. I decided to not shave off my moustache this time and let the world see the white hair because that is what I am now. Of course all know anyway because I don't shave for days and the white in the moustache and the beard are for all to see anyway. Grey stubble. [writing all this?] [give your photo?]
5th-6th Dec. night tried to sleep around 4 30 AM after watching film on TV (common refrain from many months every now and then) and could have possibly dozed off properly but for miscreant mosquitoes - hardly slept for 2 hours therefore and then had to wake up because morning noises were also coming and I was feeling hungry too (I suspect I have a kind of diabetes now) - then learnt from my mother that the pigeon actually died the day before! - that it was lying on its side in the evening in the balcony - I was sleeping that time and thus I did not come to know about that. I was saddened. I realised that perhaps the chhotaa pigeon had come for sharann (shelter) and that we were .. we were heartless? .. the pigeon had probably sensed danger and actually even earlier (in this last week) he had tried to make forays inside the house but he had been gently cajoled to not venture inside. And yes, these winter nights he had managed in the cold!, till now that is. I don't know why we (myself +) have become like this. Where is our energy? Where is our peoplehood? Where is our humanism? Where is my humanism? I guess that God will take this out on me some time in life. I will not plead. .. No I will not plead. But I hope the small pigeon forgives me, I hope that God will take care of that small spirit.
.. But then this is what the drugs (attack by organised gang in Indian Medical fraternity in 2007) have done to me. My energy, enthusiasm, "spontaneity", is gone gone gone.
.. "God please take care of that chhotaa pigeon. God please restore my energy levels so that I can again conduct like a normal human being."
We did not realise that the pigeon actually sensed danger and that is why he wanted to be inside the house. There is a vulture nest also closeby actually in this our C2B Janakpuri atop the tree at Gate No. 2. And I have seen vultures around our house every now and then. [vulture or eagle confirm this first you jerk.] Crows of course are commonly seen. I don't like them croaking btw, though their croaks are meant to signal someone's arrival at your door. ..
.. There was a crow man in Vikas Puri many years ago, a Mr. Khanna (mentioning for no specific reason). He liked crows. He fed them. I went to his house one day for professional reasons many years ago (18?, 17 years?). Immediately for the next few days the croaking of crows in our balcony and around our house increased. The increase in nos. of crows was noticeable. Point is that the crow biradari wanted to know perhaps who has visited their master's house. .. My father also fed crows sometimes. It is known that crows are a kind of link with ancestors. You feed crows you feed your ancestors.
6th morning - downloading the ashtalakshmi videos from Chant Central YouTube. There are 8 forms of Mahalakshmi [write exact words as like in definition if this is not entirely correct] and are known as Ashtalakshmis. They are known as Adi Lakshmi, Dhanya Lakshmi, Dhairya Lakshmi, Gaja Lakshmi, Santaan Lakshmi, Vijay Lakshmi, Vidya Lakshmi, Dhan Lakshmi. ..
.. I have reached Ashtalakshmi because Kushmanda, the Adi Shakti, gave rise to [write the correct technical thing if this is not perfectly correct] gave rise to MahaSaraswati, MahaLakshmi and MahaKali. And it is my desire to sort out for the sake of my own knowledge and also to become as complete as possible (a holistic understanding as much as possible) as a person (we must know our heritage as well as our purpose on earth etc.). Mahalakshmi has eight forms as mentioned above. I might share the videos on f/b profile and then later elsewhere. Already I have started a blog (just about made a blog, not much work done yet) and its link will be made public sometime [make public now if appropriate].
Kushmanda existed before this Universe. She 'brought forth' this Universe just by a smile. I am using the term 'brought forth'. She resides in this our Sun (our Solar System Sun). She guides the Sun to run the Solar System something something. I have also read that our Sun is the centre of the Universe. There is also a connection of our Sun with Vishnu's nabhi (navel). So I need to understand all these. I mean that our Solar System is on the fringes of the Milky Way Galaxy. Our Galaxy is just one amongst many (millions?) in its Constellation and there are so many Constellations (millions?). And our Sun in the Centre of the Universe? Then it must be very complex calculations (3D Geometry) because Solar System is on the fringes of the Galaxy and Galaxy also revolves around the Constellation (right?, wrong?). O Man, O Man. .. So you can joke lightheartedly - 'Blame it on Kushmanda' for giving rise to this Universe. .. Kushmanda is associated or governs the Anahat Chakra - around your Heart dude! Worshipping her can rid you of your health problems, I have read that. All the 9 Devis are associated with Chakras in/about our body. Ok? Fascinating. :-) The last 3 Devis - 7th, 8th, 9th (Kalaratri, Mahagauri, Siddhidatri) - are associated with your Sahastraar Chakra and Pineal Gland o dudette! [confirm this buster (whether it is 2 of these or all 3) - what is that Som Chakra or Bhanu Chakra?, that Nirvana Chakra?, Nirvana Chakra is outside the body?, Agya Chakra itself is outside the body?] I have to understand why they have made this association:-
Kalaratri - Lalaat
Mahagauri - Mastishk
Siddhidatri - Kapaal .
[Write in Hindi Devanagri all above.]
I mean they have differentiated or have categorisations for lalaat, brain and kapaal.
This all started also because there are 9 Devis and 7 Chakras in common knowledge. So it was intriguing.
So that Blog has started off with Navratra Devis and then it will branch out or expand. And slowly slowly all Devi Devtas will be covered and their hymns, shlokas, mantras, chants on internet (audio, video) will be posted along with informative, educative texts. That - - is - - the - - idea - - .
So 6th Dec. daytime was spent in downloading Ashtalakshmi videos. There are other videos apart from Chant Central ones.
I had decided to sleep early on 6th. .. stayed at home throughout .. I think I dozed off around 9 PM while the videos were playing in my machine after downloading was done. [give links of 1 or 2 of those videos in which they sing hymns for all Ashtalakshmis in that same video (not Chant Central).] Mosquitoes are bothering me. I woke up around 11 PM to shut the machine and dozed off again. Mosquitoes are really bothering me. Around 3 45 AM on 7th Dec. I woke up reluctantly to look for mosquito mats - where are they? They are not to be found. . tried to sleep again - sorry no luck. .. woke up again around 5 30 AM and then assured myself that at least I got that 'before 12 midnight' sleep and the 'soon after midnight' sleep also even if it was disturbed because of mosquitoes. .. around 8 AM onwards till about 1 hour+ I am on the Slender Drafts Project Post preparation, edit, posting. .. preparing the Slender Drafts posts also takes time.
[All of the above goes in B-S-F Blog.]
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